Cry Me A River

Ever since my mother gave me "My Utmost For His Highest" by Oswald Chambers, its been an amazing journey for many years to chisel away at my mistakes and then re-chisel the same mistakes away again. Every day I read this devotional, I am amazed at how imperfect I am. I think i'm doing good, but instead I get a daily reality check. Today was no different.

I could have stopped after the first sentence and learned my lesson for the day. So here it is...

I have never lead anyone to the Lord. It's a fact in my life that I'm not proud of. It's not a fact that I will ever boast in because that's not what it's about. But it's a fact I've dealt with and contemplated a lot. I worry that I am not doing enough for the Lord, and in fact it makes me feel like I've done nothing. But I'm tired of the devil sneaking these thoughts into my head.

"A river reaches places which its source never knows." A simple sentence drenched with power and truth. I have no idea how God is going to use me just as the river does not know where the water will end up. Sometimes I don't know how I've been used, if I've been used at all. But guess what?! We're not always supposed to know!!! There have been few instances when God has made it known to me that I made an impact on someone. But now that I think about it, it shouldn't matter to me if God tells me or not. I'm supposed to be the salt and light of earth, no matter if I'm in a room full of lanterns or not! And just like my last post, our goal isn't to be worried about these things. And do not equate this to an excuse for mediocrity and justification to not share the Gospel with someone.

I believe that we are all given gifts. God has told us this many times in the Bible. But I believe that God has used me in different ways other than leading them to the Lord face-to-face. Maybe God has someone else in store for that job. I am not scared of being that person if God puts that situation in front of me, but I've yet to be in one of those situations.

All in all, I don't know what God has planned for your life. I don't know how God is going to use you, but God does. And we need to be in a good standing relationship with God so that we can be in tuned with what He has for us. And the next couple of lines of the devotional says this... "And Jesus said that, if we have received His fullness, 'rivers of living water' will flow out of us, reaching in blessing even 'to the end of the earth' (Acts 1:8) regardless of how small the visible effects of our lives may appear to be. We have nothing to do with the outflow--'This is the work of God, that you believe...' (John 6:29). God rarely allows a person to see how great a blessing he is to others."

Well said Oswald. Well said.

Have a blessed day! Be a light!